Letter 06-02-2024

My Dearest Nik,

On the 31st of December, 2023, I confessed to you my feelings. It was my way of ending the year with no regrets. I did not expect anything in return; I vividly recall telling you that you did not have to do or say anything back. I also remember I was the one who ended the conversation by not replying anymore, already content with what I have received. For the entirety of January, I did not expect anything to happen between the two of us. In February, however, we started having small interactions here and there. We would chat every now and then — I remember your asking me if I wanted to adopt a kitten at the time. One core memory was when you bought tickets for ACSS' raffle. :) Regrettably, I did not put much meaning into these things as I did not want to have expectations and then be hurt in the event they do not get met. Then, in March, we started talking every day and it was the start of the most genuine friendship a person could ever ask for. I will say this now: you are the best plot twist to ever happen to me.

Nik, believe me when I say I was the happiest I have ever been my whole life when you gave me your letter. You said yes and made it official on May 2 — you became my girlfriend. I have never been more sure of anything in my life. Not to compare you to my previous partners but both of my exes have been long distance relationships. You have told me multiple times that this is the first time you have ever felt this much love so with this, I want you to know that this is a first for me as well. I want you to know that I have never received this much love and affection from a person before. I want you to know, Nik, that you are so, so loved. I want to experience the rest of my stay in college and everything that comes after that with you. I want to be the best version of myself because my girl deserves nothing but that. I want to love you the way you deserve to be loved. Like what I said, I may not be able to give you the whole world, but God knows I will try anyway.

I love that I get to unapologetically be myself around you. Thank you, my love, for the love that we share. :) Whenever you feel down, I will cheer you up. Whenever there's a problem, I may not be able to provide a solution all the time, rest assured that I will be there always. On the days that we do not see each other eye-to-eye, I promise to always put you first because you will always be more important than whatever we will fight about. Whenever you are hurting, in a heartbeat, it will be you and I against everything. We will make sense of the messy world around us and find calm in each other's embrace because we are a team. We are the best — my love, YOU are the best.

Mahal kita, Nik. I want to experience all of my firsts and lasts with you. I am so lucky I get to call you mine. With no reservations, I am yours as well. From here on out — always.

Your kaaway, your best friend, your love,
Chris :)

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